I know you harbor it
It seeps through you
And reaches the deepest recesses of my soul
Because of the pain you inflict on me
And my loved ones
You are one giant ball of pain
That emanates from every pore
It hurts to be around you
It hurts to talk to you
It hurts to listen to you
It hurts to watch every furrow of your face
Twisting and curling
Demonstrating every inch of your disgust
What disgusts you?
Is it our smiles?
Are we too happy for you?
Are we too independent for you?
Are we not hurting enough for you?
I love you
Because I have to
But I wish I could simply let you go
I wish I could live without ever knowing
If you truly love me too.