I know you harbor it

It seeps through you

And reaches the deepest recesses of my soul

I hurt

Because of the pain you inflict on me

And my loved ones

You are one giant ball of pain

That emanates from every pore

It hurts to be around you

It hurts to talk to you

It hurts to listen to you

It hurts to watch every furrow of your face

Twisting and curling

Demonstrating every inch of your disgust

What disgusts you?

Is it our smiles?

Are we too happy for you?

Are we too independent for you?

Are we not hurting enough for you?

I love you

Because I have to

But I wish I could simply let you go

I wish I could live without ever knowing

If you truly love me too.