Go Away

Pain, pain go away I know you’ll come another day Pain, pain go away I’m done chasing you far away I tried burying you I tried screaming at you I tried hitting you I tried crying you out But you always come back They try drinking you away They try cutting you out They try suffocating you They try popping you out They even tried … Continue reading Go Away

Women

We’ve had a lot on our hands… I want to say lately, but it’s nearing on a decade now, maybe even more than a decade! Yes, probably more. A gazillion thoughts run through my brain about a trillion different things. But they return, without working themselves out, they return, like a ghost waiting for its release to the other side, like rays of light being … Continue reading Women

Greatness Should Keep On Giving

Yesterday, for the first time in about twenty years, I shopped at H&M. It had been accused of not caring for the environment or its workers, the complaints were loud, and unapologetic. H&M took notice, and it’s been cleaning up its act ever since Fashion Revolution began about six years ago, in response to the Rana Plaza disaster. I rarely buy new clothes for myself, … Continue reading Greatness Should Keep On Giving

Simplicity

I remember my first class across Universities (this is a great advantage when living in a city with several Universities: you get to take courses from each, and they all work together towards your degree). He was a young visiting Professor from Spain, teaching in our nation’s capital for the first time. He had this green air about him, which beamed of complete abandonment to … Continue reading Simplicity

Love Interrupted

You love but something blocks you an invisible barrier holds you from reaching to me   You hurt but you won’t tear down that wall   Your love is insecure unstable interrupted   constantly deeply consistently interrupted   Pain You are pain’s embodiment sheltering a fearful love. Continue reading Love Interrupted

Ode to a Blue Recliner

I claimed you Old, tattered, torn… missing pieces the ones that used to matter but you came from the one who owned you the one who reclined on you for comfort on those long chemo days on those wretched post-surgery days the only sure respite from it all you… and his cat   I claimed you not because I needed you not because I liked … Continue reading Ode to a Blue Recliner

My little buddy

My little buddy walks in the kitchen and gets me smiling even before I get my morning coffee! I throw him a compliment and he catches it on his swing out the door with a flare only a confident loving preschooler can muster. He points his index fingers at me like he’s about to shoot a compliment back at me, he winks and declares: “Goody-goood!”. … Continue reading My little buddy

Playing with my son

He is making noise with the kapla, I love the sound of wooden blocks, so I go and check what he’s building. I lie down next to his construction area (cuz what I really want to do is sleep, but this is too compelling to miss). What are you making? A door, you take these… so I start positioning them according to what I think … Continue reading Playing with my son

Breather

My chest feels constricted. I announced I’m not going to the beach. I need a break. You go, have fun, I need to be alone. I just finished folding the laundry and coaxing the kids to put it away IN the drawers, NEATLY. I just reorganized their drawers three days ago. I just washed all our laundry yesterday. This last hamper was sitting in the … Continue reading Breather

Half Breed

I once overheard someone proudly calling herself a “halfbreed.” It caught me off guard. I lost my footing for a split of a second. It fogged my brain and made me dizzy for an instant. I tried to convince myself that I must have misunderstood. But I hadn’t. Because she went on to explain that she was half Native and half something else. She explained … Continue reading Half Breed