Balancing Act

I’m always balancing Inbetween spaces Not quite here nor there But holding onto everything I know Jealously So as not to fall into oblivion Not stable in any one milieu Often shoved over the edge But I manage to hold on Unnoticed Until I attempt to get a greater grip I grasp and tug and…

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Go Away

Pain, pain go away I know you’ll come another day Pain, pain go away I’m done chasing you far away I tried burying you I tried screaming at you I tried hitting you I tried crying you out But you always come back They try drinking you away They try cutting you out They try…

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Find Your Undertone

For decades I’ve held the belief that I had a warm undertone. I always classified myself as an Autumn, and a couple of decades ago, when the twelve season palette was released, I jumped on the color-scheme wagon and plotted my way to a Soft Autumn palette. For over two decades now I’ve been shopping…

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Love Interrupted

You love but something blocks you an invisible barrier holds you from reaching to me   You hurt but you won’t tear down that wall   Your love is insecure unstable interrupted   constantly deeply consistently interrupted   Pain You are pain’s embodiment sheltering a fearful love.

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Ode to a Blue Recliner

I claimed you Old, tattered, torn… missing pieces the ones that used to matter but you came from the one who owned you the one who reclined on you for comfort on those long chemo days on those wretched post-surgery days the only sure respite from it all you… and his cat   I claimed…

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Half Breed

I once overheard someone proudly calling herself a “halfbreed.” It caught me off guard. I lost my footing for a split of a second. It fogged my brain and made me dizzy for an instant. I tried to convince myself that I must have misunderstood. But I hadn’t. Because she went on to explain that…

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Growing up

I walk into your room and feel your absence I talk to your siblings and feel your absence We sit to eat and feel your absence Your absence is tugging at my heart like a kite on a windy day I follow you in every way I can, not to loose sight of you But…

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Pain

I know you harbor it It seeps through you And reaches the deepest recesses of my soul I hurt Because of the pain you inflict on me And my loved ones You are one giant ball of pain That emanates from every pore It hurts to be around you It hurts to talk to you…

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Am I a Minimalist After All?

I recently wrote a post titled Why I’m not a Minimalist, and my dear sister commented on my FB page explaining that Minimalism isn’t just about getting rid of stuff, it’s about simplifying life so we have more time for loved ones, she also brought to my attention that there is at least one very…

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Natascha

Natascha is who I would choose to have as a sister if I could choose. She has been my bff for thirty years, and I literally knew the moment we met that we’d be forever tied. When I moved away from Switzerland I worried about missing her more than anything else, but despite the distance…

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